So Much Has Happened!!!

Happy Monday Everyone!

I hope you had a wonderful and safe weekend.

If it is any indication of the situation in the world right now, I sighed as soon as I typed the title and started typing this post.

I feel like the world we have been living in is just plain crazy and each day I wake up wondering what will happen next. I am thankful that we are all healthy but there is so much uncertainty in these times that it makes it scary to even venture to the grocery store.

This post my jump around a little bit so please be patient. I think first off I will give you an update on what our life looks like right now.

Work

So as far as right now goes, Damiean and I are both still working. We are both deemed “essential” but I don’t know if the government, pertaining to my job, will allow us to continue functioning at our full capacity or not. In case you are new here or can’t remember what I do, I work in finance. My company’s primary functions are estate planning, investments and taxes. Currently, we are not seeing clients in office but continue to try and function as normally as possible. In Damiean’s case, he will work through the duration of this because he is a medical professional who works at a hospital.

Pregnancy

Right now I am 28 weeks pregnant. I will be sharing a “bump-date” if you will tomorrow that will catch you up on where we are at in this pregnancy. But to give you some insight into what is going on in my brain in today;s world is that I am worried! While most new mom’s are nervous as they approach their due date, I feel the situation going on with the virus makes the stake even higher. I have to worry about whether or not Damiean will be allowed to go into the hospital and stay with me when we delivery our baby. The possibility is very real that they could deny him entry and I will have to delivery and be alone right after the baby is born. The thought is terrifying if I am being honest because as strong as I know I am, I really would like him to be there to hold my hand through the process. I also worry about the fact that we don’t have a lot of information on how this virus impacts newborns. What if I am sick when it comes time to deliver? Will they take away my baby for two weeks? I won’t delve too far down that rabbits hole because that is a situation I have no control over and will have to face when the time comes. I am also very sad that I can’t celebrate my baby shower as originally planned. We were On a happier note, it is crazy to think that we will have a baby in the house in a little less than 12 weeks!

Wedding

Oh….the wedding…. Up until last week, we were good to go with a small gathering on the 18th of April. So we continued planning as usual. Then we got an email letting us know that we needed to postpone. The tricky part is that we have no idea when we can reschedule for at this time so for now the ceremony is…delayed indefinitely. However, we did decide that we are still going to get married on the 18th one way or another!

Mental Health

I hesitated on adding this category mostly because even with so many movements toward normalizing this discussion, there is still a stigma attached. However, I wanted to be honest and say that this time has been mentally exhausting some days. I have been really focusing on being positive but I can’t lie and say that I haven’t shed a tear or two over the events we have had to cancel and the family we haven’t been able to see in the past 3 weeks. How are you holding up?

If you have made it this far, you are a saint for reading all this! I hope you are all doing well and staying safe. Just remember, no matter what you have going on, you aren’t alone! We can still be among community even while staying at home!