Wrecked- Why I Quit My Job.

Happy Monday!

I hope that you all had a great weekend!

Mine was busy but great! Saturday morning was spent with my sister, Cierra, at the Farmers Market. This was the final market of the season and it was hot! My sister is the owner and operator of Cierra’s Bake Shoppe and makes the most delicious cookies and cakes. We were set up right across from Mama’s Cold Brew and kept seeing the adorable mason jar cups they were selling flying off the table. We had been eyeing them all day so we decided to finally bite the bullet and buy one. I chose the flamingos and my sister went with the floral design. Sunday I saw the Avengers Infinity War. IT WAS AMAZING! If you haven’t seen it yet, you definitely should.

So now onto the story of why I quit my job.

If you have read my blog for a little while you know that I was working a job that was making me extremely unhappy. Well, unhappy is a bit of an understatement because my job was making me down right miserable. I worked there almost a year and a half and it got progressively worse the longer I stayed there. For one, my boss was horrendous. While there were some good days, they were few and far between. During my time at that job we lost about 6 people and even before I was there, the turnover was just as high. This job was in the financial industry and extremely high stress, made even more stressful by being continuously micromanaged and verbally abused. I won’t go into too much detail because if I did this post would be 15 pages long. Ultimately, in the last 3 months I worked there, I began not caring about myself at all. I was working late hours and bringing work home with me almost every night. My co-workers were excessively negative and I found myself shaking when I would sit in on meetings with my boss. In turn, this made my immune system go haywire and I wound up sick over and over again with a sinus infection. Still, I continued to believe that things might get better. They didn’t. I couldn’t believe it but it actually got worse. During the last week leading up to the end, I found myself crying at the drop of a hat. My emotions had gone haywire and I didn’t know how to fix it.

Then came my last two days.

It was Friday and we were having a speaking event in our office. We had people who flew in to speak so the day was hectic. One of my co-workers and I had put together the event and made sure we had taken care of all the details leading up to it as best we could. As soon as my boss arrived she began quickly picking apart everything we had done and expressing how dissatisfied she was with what we had put together. While this was nothing new, this time it just felt wrong, like a veil had been lifted and I was finally realizing that I did not deserve to be treated like this by someone who told me that they cared about me. By the end of Friday, I was spent. The day was long and stressful and my boss decided that speaking to my co-worker and I in private to express how unhappy she was with the set up, she would really lay into us in front of the people who spoke at the event. To say it was embarrassing was an understatement and I left work feeling dejected and miserable, as usual!

Usually, the weekends provided a bit of a break but by Sunday I was dreading work already. That feeling was enhanced by the fact that my boss felt it necessary to call and lecture me further about Friday. After hanging up I realized that my relationship with my boss was toxic. As that day wore on I realized that the feeling I had was simply wrecked. I found myself questioning how much longer I could possibly do this and why I would want to.  Sunday night after Damiean got off work we met up for dinner/dessert. You know those nights you remember forever, but for reasons that aren’t necessarily pleasant? This was one of those nights.  We were sitting on the patio of Chipotle talking about our days and that was when I finally had the breakdown that had been slowly building for quite some time. Damiean thoughtfully listened as I described my feelings of desperation to leave there and my frustrations about not successfully find a job yet that allowed me to leave. I cried and expressed how scared I was of what this job was doing to me and Damiean agreed that I had finally reached a point where he found it difficult to look at me because everything about my body language and demeanor seemed to be crying for help. The tears did not subside for awhile but I had to get home so I could get ready for work the next day.  I fell asleep quickly out of sheer emotional exhaustion and woke up Monday morning feeling no refreshment at all. I got dressed and headed to work as usual, unaware what the day would hold.

Once I arrived at work, I turned on my computer and checked my email. I always expect Mondays to be busy but this one took the cake. I had probably 10 emails, all from my boss containing nothing but negative statements and requests that I handle situations that she herself could easily handle. In that moment sitting at my desk, I finally realized that I could not do this anymore. I quickly typed of my letter of resignation and left.

Let me say this, during my time there,my family, boyfriend and friends all questioned why I would continue to work there. They noticed that as time wore on, I was becoming a shadow of the person I once was and it was not healthy. Like almost everyone in a situation like that, I denied their statements and told them it would get better and it was just for now. Hindsight is 20/20 and looking back now I should have quit a long time ago before I got to where I was.

I know I might get some negative comments or be judged for how I left this job, but trust me, it was the right decision. While my intention was always to give 2 weeks before leaving, I couldn’t wait that long.

After I left, I felt a rush of emotions. I was thrilled to finally be out of that environment and felt free. On the other side I felt afraid and scared of what might happen.

What happened next was nothing short of amazing! The next day, Damiean and I were out to lunch and I received a call letting me know that I had gotten a job! To say I was elated was an understatement. This new job is also in the financial industry but it is actually enjoyable to go to work everyday and I have wonderful co-workers who create a positive work environment that I leave at 5:00 on the dot everyday!

If you have read this far, you are a saint and I appreciate you!

Thank you for letting me share this story with you.

 

 

 

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Quick Catch Up!

Hi Guys,

I promise I did not forget about you!! This last month has been insane and I had every intention of blogging but things kept getting busier and busier!

So let’s use this time to do a full catch up on everything going on:

Running:

I have been running pretty consistently since I finally have time after work. It is getting pretty hot already so I have been slowly transitioning to the treadmill and watching Criminal Minds. I am not currently in training for any “big” races but might sign up for the Summer Shorts Incredibles Virtual Races. Any recommendations on other virtual’s or races in Arizona?

Work:

So work has been…interesting! If you follow me on Instagram, you know that I quit my job about a month ago and got hired elsewhere the next day. That threw my whole world into a whirlwind but I am a lot happier. I have a post scheduled for tomorrow that gives you an idea of how all of that came to be and what is going on now.

Love:

Damiean and I celebrated our 3 year anniversary on the 20th of April. Since our anniversary fell on a Friday, which is a day we both work, we went on an adventure up to Sedona on the Wednesday before and had a relaxing and wonderful time.

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Family:

My family and I last visited California at the beginning of March and are scheduled to go back to celebrate a variety of different occasions in May. We are also extremely excited to be there for Pixar Fest! Also, we added a new member to our family! Lilly Belle joined our family about 2 weeks ago.

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What have you guys been up to?!

 

 

Let’s Get Excited!

Hi There,

I hope your Wednesday is off to a great start.

Today, I am really trying to focus on the positive things happening in my life and find the motivation to make it through the rest of this very long week! Tomorrow and Friday I have some work events taking place that are causing a bit of chaos and Saturday, I have my life and health insurance exam! To counter this and focus on the good, I am looking forward to getting done with my test so that I can binge watch the Santa Clarita Diet Season 2, yay!! I don’t know if you guys have watched Season 1 yet but I highly recommend it. I watched it once on my own and then Damiean and I got about 3 episodes in before he decided he was not a fan. It is kind of a rom-com drama so it hits all the good points I think a series should.

Another thing I am excited about is that I am in negotiations for a new job! I am crossing my fingers for this to come to fruition and will keep you guys updated!

The biggest and most exciting thing is that Easter weekend is going to be spent in California! I am so excited to get away for 2 days and just enjoy a little break from real life. We will be heading to Huntington Beach and Sunset Beach on Saturday and then venturing over to Disneyland/ California Adventure on Easter Sunday. Speaking of Disneyland and California Adventure, did you guys hear the news about Marvel taking over what is currently a Bug’s Land??

Lots of changes taking place in the park lately but I am excited to see what they have in store.

 

What are you most excited about today?

Any big upcoming plans?

Frustration!

Happy Tuesday.

Well, we survived Monday! How was yours?

If you follow me on Instagram, I mentioned that a meeting I had lasted A LOT longer than usual which left me feeling a bit like the tightrope walker from the Haunted Mansion!

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I am going to be, maybe a bit too honest in this post. Lately, I have found myself feeling excessively sad and frustrated. I am generally a very happy person so it is different for me and a bit off putting to the people around me because I don’t know how to properly express this feeling. Happy usually equals goofy, Mad usually equals sarcasm.. there just seems to be no appropriate counter part to the sadness and frustration.

There has been a lot going on over the past few weeks. As I said, we lost a furry family member and things are extremely difficult at my job. Not to go into too much detail but some changes seem to have taken place and suddenly I find myself anxious to get out of there as soon as possible. Match that anxiety of getting out to a lack of job offers in this area and that is majorly contributing to the sadness and frustration.

I know that I need to be patient and that when the timing is right, the right opportunity will present itself. Right now I am just caught in this that I can’t seem to shake off.

However, instead of just sitting here letting it consume me, I am trying hard to focus on the good things to come.Tomorrow night is date night with Damiean (yes, you finally can know his name!) I am taking my Life and Health Insurance exam this weekend, which might help with the job search. Easter weekend we are heading to Disneyland for some much needed R&R. Hopefully there will be a few more nibbles on the resume soon.

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If you made it this far, I appreciate you sticking around and letting me vent. Sometimes it helps to put the words out into the universe instead of storing them in my head!

What do you do to stay motivated when you’re frustrated?

 

 

Weekend Recap 3/15- 3/18

Happy Monday!

I hope that your morning has been amazing and that you have a great day ahead of you.

This weekend was very busy and full of running and coffee!

Friday night after work, Sydnee and I headed to the Tanger Outlet Mall to participate in the Kilt Run. If you have been reading for a little bit, you know that this is the race that Sydnee and I signed up for at the last minute this past week. Once we got there we picked up our race bibs, kilts and shirts.

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This race was super short and packet pick up was a bit of a mess but it was a lot of fun and the medal was amazing! After the race,we headed home to prep our stuff for the next day. I honestly think that local races are harder than out of state races because I feel a lot less organized!

After prepping everything we headed to bed for our 5:00 a.m. wake-up call.

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The next day, St. Patrick’s Day, we ventured out to Westgate to participate in part 2 of the Kiss Me Challenge, which for us, was the 4K. That was a new distance for both Sydnee and I so we were excited to see what we thought. For both races, I will be doing a full recap in case you are interested in participating!

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Once we finished the race, which seemed really short, we collected our 4K medal as well as our challenge medal. The medals for this race were huge! I was somewhat shocked at exactly how big they were!

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After collecting our medals, we picked up some Starbucks and headed up. We made sure to pick up a Puppacino for Indiana Bones as well.

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Once we had breakfast, Sydnee and I pretty much laid around and watched a movie. The movie was one I had never seen before, Thor Ragnorak. If you have not seen this movie, I highly recommend that you watch it! I thought it was awesome and definitely lived up to the hype.

At 4:45 we headed to the Hockey Arena to watch the Coyotes VS. Minnesota. Let me tell you, there must be no one left in Minnesota because this arena was packed with Wild fans. Unfortunately, we lost 3-2. However, it is always fun to get out there and support our coyotes.

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My family is big on “small” gifts for most holidays so we exchanged the small gifts that we bought.

I lucked out and received a Starbucks Gift Card, Coffee Socks, Washi tape for my day planner and Skittles.

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Sunday’s are always full of errands and this one was no different. After breakfast, Cierra (my middle sister) and I ventured out to Charming Charlies to check out their Disney collection. Unfortunately, they had 4 things in stock and it was not anything that we were interested in purchasing so we left empty handed. Next, we headed to Ulta so I could pick up a new hair straightener. When I had my hair colored, my wonderful stylist used a Chi hair straightener and I loved the way it turned out so I decided to invest! I decided on the 1″ straightener and I am in love! I will be sure to post a picture to show you how it turned out!

After Ulta, we headed home. The rest of the day was spent prepping for the week and dreaming of the weekend to come.  I also did a little D.I.Y with a jewelry holder I picked up from Wal-Mart. I had been on the hunt for a little while for something just like this but hated the color! Anyone who knows me, will definitely tell you that I am not a fan of doing it myself! Luckily, there is spray paint! I love the way it turned out and it works perfectly.

 

This week is busy, with a job interview on Monday (yay!), date night on Tuesday and two work events taking place on Thursday and Friday! I am exhausted just thinking about it!

What is on your agenda for this week?

Friday Feels

Happy Friday!!

We made it through another week. Today is a busy day that started with coffee and a full calendar. At 5:00, my sister and I will head over to the Tanger Outlet Mall to run the first part of the Kiss Me I’m Irish Challenge. This portion is the Kilt Run, be sure to follow me on Instagram to get a look at the two of us rocking our Kilts!

My Friday feels have got me wishing I was back at the beach today.  What can I say… I am really anxious to travel!

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Tomorrow is an early morning, with the second part of the challenge starting at 7:17 A.M. After that I plan on putting together a blogging calendar (not that I don’t like this whole typing it on the same day it posts!) so that I can be better organized and have things scheduled. After that, me and the family will head to a hockey game.

Sunday will be a day of rest and job applications!

 

What is on your agenda for this weekend?

 

Disney Daydreams…

Happy Thursday!

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I don’t know about all of you, but I for some reason am having some major Disney daydreams today. One thing I am missing the most is the coffee. Starbucks itself is amazing and I do indulge here in Arizona. However, the cups in Disneyland and California Adventure just have that extra magic that makes them taste even better.

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Another thing I find myself missing is the feeling of relaxation. Whenever I am feeling stressed, my mind usually says things like hey…we should definitely go to Disneyland! Which is probably why it is one of my favorite places. Even though it is sometimes crowded, a crowded day in Disney is better than any day at work!

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Luckily, we are annual pass-holders and we are only about 2 weeks away from our trip over Easter weekend, so the countdown keeps getting smaller!

If you do happen to be in Disney today, enjoy a cup of extra magical coffee for me!

Are you a Disney addict?If so, what is your favorite ride?

A Book That Is Rocking My World!

Good Morning,

Thank goodness it is Wednesday! Is anyone else’s week dragging on right now? Because I think Tuesday lasted 3 days all on its own.

Today, I wanted to share with you a book that is rocking my world! Girl Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis.

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Let me preface this by saying this is not an ad nor is it sponsored. This is simply a fan girl post for an author, woman, entrepreneur and amazing human being whose words are inspiring me to want more from my life.

I have read all of Rachel’s books so far and I will tell you, this book feels like a conversation with an old friend. Her brutal honesty and real life experiences and humor, open your eyes to the world you are living in right now.

Personally, I have been dealing with a lot of stress and uneasiness at work for awhile now. When I read this book, all I kept thinking was, there has to be something better than this! This book (along with my friends and family) are what pushed me to finally tell myself that, yes this job pays well and here is growth opportunity….it is also sucking the joy and happiness out of your life! I deserve better than that!

The words that are on my inspiration board currently are ones that I repeat in my head daily- ” Nobody gets to tell you how big your dreams can be.”- Rachel Hollis

I highly recommend that you pick up this book either at Target or order it through Amazon because it is amazing and worth the read.

Rachel, just in case you do see this and happen to make it to my little corner of the internet… I simply adore you! Thank you for making me want more and for once, really feel I deserve more!

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What is a book you are loving these days?

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Last Minute Sign Up and Tuesday Blues

Good Morning Everyone,

I hope you are having a happy Tuesday so far.

So as the title implies yesterday Sydnee and I made a decision to sign up for the Kiss Me I’m Irish Kilt Race as well as the Kiss Me I’m Irish 4K.

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We went back and forth for two days after our last race trying to decide if we could fit this in to the weekend and ultimately decided that yes, for three medals, we would definitely take the challenge and earn the three medals they are offering.

The challenge starts on Friday night with a Kilt Run which is a 1K. Short distance but all the proceeds benefit a great cause. The second part of the challenge is on Saturday morning, starting at 7:17 A.M. We opted for the 4K because immediately following the race, I need to jump down the street to work with my sister at the Farmers Market.

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I am very excited to be running again next weekend because it definitely gives me something to look forward to at the end of the week.

Do you guys ever get the Tuesday blues? Tuesday for some reason gives me the blues even more than Monday these days. Maybe it is the fact that it is still so early on in the week and we still have so long to go until we reach the weekend. Right now I am questioning a few things, which makes the weeks last even longer. As I have described it to my friends, I feel like I am at a crossroads with my job. Feeling uneasy day in and day out makes for a rough work week. I am hoping to find a solution soon that might help ease the anxiety I have, any good tips?

How do you get over the Tuesday blues?

Do you already have big plans for the weekend?

Weekend Recap and Medal Monday

Happy Monday!

I don’t know about you but I always dread Monday, especially when the weekend is full of activities and seems to speed by like crazy!

This weekend was full of running, movies and hockey! Since D works on the weekend, I spend a majority of my time with my parents and sisters enjoying the two days off a week I have.

Saturday morning we got up extra early, not always fun when it is one of the few days I get to sleep in, but it was for a run so I can usually muster up the energy to drag myself out of bed. My mom, sisters and myself ran the Run To Fight Children’s Cancer 5k. It is a race I have done for quite a few years and it just keeps getting better. I will do a full recap later this week in case anyone is curious about what to expect. Spoiler Alert: It was a ton of fun!

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After the race we went to Matt’s Big Breakfast on Camelback at the Biltmore. Sydnee and I discovered it on Instagram when we were joking about going to “Flavortown” as Guy Fiere says. When we stumbled upon this gem that was featured on Diners, Drive-In’s and Dives, we knew we had to venture that direction. It was a bit different than what we were expecting but it was delicious and worth the 15 minute wait. I might give you a brief write up later on about the food and atmosphere.

After eating a delicious omelette and grabbing a Starbucks White Chocolate Mocha Iced Coffee, I hung out with my sisters on the couch…basically the rest of the day. It was definitely nice to relax since laying around on the couch is not something I do very often. We watched Chopped, Top Chef, Moana and part of Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol. 2 before dinner. After dinner my mom joined us to watch a few episodes of Nailed It, which is a new show (at least new to us) on Netflix. If you are a fan of Pinterest Fails, then this is definitely a show you will appreciate! Around 10:00 we were all falling asleep on the couch so decided to head to bed.

Sunday is always tough because it eventually turns into pre-Monday. I started my day off with some Dark Chocolate Kodiak cakes for breakfast and then finally made my way to getting dressed. Sydnee and I ran to get some coffee, then headed home to prep for the week. I put away laundry and picked out outfits for the week. It is unfortunately going to be a very long week at work because we have clients in office almost every day. Clients in office typically means leaving work after 5:00 for me.

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After finishing up some things around the house, I started prepping my planner for the week ahead. I am a huge fan of the Happy Planner and love the layout. Once I started filling it in with a few things going on this week, I quickly realized that there may not be enough coffee to keep me going , haha.

Around 4:45 we left to head to the Coyotes game. Fun Fact: my sister, Sydnee, is a die hard hockey fan and can often be found blogging about hockey or talking about hockey with anyone who will listen. She could even tell you the birthday and sometimes favorite color of almost all the players for the Coyotes.

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It was an intense game but in the end the Coyotes did win 1-0, which means $.99 coffee at Dunkin Donuts tomorrow! Woohoo! Coffee is good, but cheap or free coffee…tastes even better.

After the game we headed home and it was time to wind down for bed. All in all it was a great weekend spent with my sisters and parents.

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Since it has been awhile since I have updated my medal Monday, here is the updated rack. There have been quite a few added since the last time I posted, one from this weekend as well as a few others I earned along the way. While I am proud of all of them, the ones I love looking at the most are my Superheros Half Marathon Weekend medals. I will be doing separate race reviews for each of the three races I completed during that week so you know what to expect when they do finally bring back the race. I will say that those medals were hard earned and each one of them represents a PR!

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With daylight savings time having just occurred (everywhere else but here and a few other places) I hope that all of you have a happy Monday filled with positive thoughts and plenty of coffee.

Until next time..

What is your favorite kind of coffee?

Do you have a favorite medal on your rack?